MORE Change

AJ has become very good at handling change. Well, he doesn’t really have a choice, but I suppose he could act unhappy, hit, be cranky or seem different but he hasn’t. In fact, Jason and I believe that so far, we have raised a polite, smart, happy, fun loving, all around good boy. I am so thankful that Jason and I get along as well as we do because this makes everything easier for him and I, but especially for AJ. He’s our NUMBER 1 priority.

This past weekend, I moved back in with my Mom and Dave and Jason moved out of his condo and back into the house. It was an emotional weekend for me- I loved that house. We had many great memories there and I loved my neighborhood. I remember when we bought it; this was going to be my “forever” house.  Also, being 34 and a mother, it was/is tough for me to go back to living with Mom. It’s certainly an adjustment, but I am so thankful to have a place to go to get back up on my feet again. I really don’t know what I would do if my mom and Dave wouldn’t have offered this.

What this means for AJ is that “Mommy’s house” is now “Daddy’s house” and Mommy now lives with Mamna and Papa. It’s a hard concept for him to grasp. On one hand, it’s great that he still has the same house that he’s always lived in (Daddy's house). On the other hand, I know he’s confused about where Mommy lives and why we are always at Mamna and Papa’s house. He loves it there, but of course isn’t used to living there. The other night, just before bed, he told me he wanted to go to Mommy house… Broke my heart. I keep reminding myself that he is only 2. He doesn’t understand this and he won’t remember it either. I tell myself this is a good thing.

My plan is to get back on my feet quickly and get my own place. Mommy’s house (or condo, or townhouse, or apartment). As much as I appreciate being able to stay with my Mom and Dave, we all know that this is temporary. So, I’m searching very hard for a new job that will allow for AJ and me to move into our own place- even something small for a year or so will be fine by me. I’m not looking for my new “forever” home just yet. Obviously, the economy is crappy and good jobs are hard to come by, but I’m looking. My past experience is mainly in tech sales, but since I got my Marketing degree, I’d like to try and use it.