Terrible Threes

Oh gosh... everyone says it isn't "terrible 2's", it's "terrible 3's" and I'm starting to agree. This few weeks have been ROUGH! AJ is getting smarter, so he's learning to play me more and knows how to hurt me. And I've got so much guilt that I let him get away with too much- it's not a good cycle.

To be honest, one of the hardest parts for me right now is that I don't see AJ on a daily basis. So each time I do see him, it's like starting over. And when I see him, I want to make him happy. I want to have a fun time with him. But then, I also have a life and groceries that need to be bought, dinner to be made, a house that needs to be cleaned and just stuff that needs to be done. Right now, I feel like we're having less fun together and he's spending more time in time out or in trouble because he's just so mean to me so often.

It makes me so sad to think that the little time I get to spend with my son, I spend a lot of it with him in time out, or him melting down at Walmart because he's been so bad he doesn't get a cookie, or telling me "I'm not your friend, mommy" or "I don't care" or "it's not fair". Or lately, he spits at me or thows his toys up against the wall, or tells me when I pick him up from day care "I want my daddy". (nothing against Jason, but after 2 days without AJ, that hurts)

I do still get the occasional "I love you mommy" which I love, but he wont sit on my lap, or give me a kiss or hug. Typically lately, he denies me.

I'm frustrated tonight, obviously. It's not as bad as it seems. It was just a rough couple of hours. I need to be more strict. I guess I have to sacrafice time now in order to make him grow into a better man.

Update on Us

Wow- I win the "Worst Blogger" award for the past month or so. Life has been so crazy hectic -still- and when I think about blogging, I'm either way overwhelmed with the amount of things I want to or should write or my lame Internet stops working and I give up. I feel like I can't keep up. I guess I have to forgive myself and do the best I can, right?
Anyway, we're doing fantastic! Life, while crazy busy and hectic, is back to having some sort of consistency. Love that.

AJ is really enjoying school- he still goes 4 days a week- and the teachers love him. He never fights going, and at times actually doesn't want to leave. He's learning SO MUCH! He can point out some letters, knows how to write his name (it's not always legible but I love that he tries), he has great friends there and I've noticed he plays so well with other kids now. He's polite, shares, talks about his friends, loves having "jobs" at school and likes his teachers a lot. He's really growing into such a wonderful young man. I couldn't be more proud of my guy.

We stopped swim lessons a few weeks back. AJ didn't get into the class because I waited too long to sign him up, and so I took that as a sign. With the holidays coming up and everything else in our lives, we all need a break. I think we'll sign him up for gymnastics in January. He's so coordinated and always on the move, so I think he'll do well.

I am doing great too- work is awesome. I love my boss and am really doing very well there. I work a lot of overtime when I can which means I don't get a lot of extra time to do my own stuff, but for now it's totally worth it. I'm very very VERY thankful the last 2 years are over and I'm starting fresh.

AJ and I are headed to California to hang with Pop, Grammy, Matt and Kristin for Thanksgiving and I'm so looking forward to getting away for a bit. We haven't been back to Cali for way too long.

Well, I guess that's it.... more to come later.

Happy Halloween 2011



Happy Halloween from Fireman AJ!

Love this guy!

AJ made a pumpkin for school. His pumpkin won "Best Eyes"

Good thing his mom is so creative huh? :)

Anderson Farms 2011

We made our annual trip to Anderson Farms a few weeks ago and once again had a great time! AJ and I went with Grandma and Papa and it was a perfect day! The weather was perfect, AJ was in a great mood and we just had such an enjoyable time. Here's some pictures:

Playing in the maize. He LOVED it again this year.

Sitting up on the big wagon with Papa

Feeding a 4 day old goat :)

All of us!

Barrel Train Rides!

Chillin out on some HUGE pumpkins!

Tracing



I'm so impressed by AJ's tracing! I put the dots and he drew over them. My boy is growing up!

First Snow of the Year

We got our first snow this morning! What a surprise! AJ and I woke up- I went to make my coffee and AJ hopped on the couch. I looked outside and there it was! We were so excited. We put on coats and slippers and went on outside to throw our first snowballs at each other. AJ asked me if we could go skiing today. I think we'll do that this year!

Download?!

Tonight, on our way home from Grandma's, AJ asked me if I had Angry Birds on my phone. I said I didn't, but I'd get it for him. So, as I was trying to get the app, he asked me, "Mom, are you downloading it now?" Who is this child!? How does my baby know what the heck downloading is?!

I cracked up uncontrollably- so much so that he yelled at me to stop laughing at him. It was SO funny tho!

I love him :)